06 November 2011: Woke up catching my breath and tearing up

Ted and I were at a carnival after I had been at the Darlington chapel and it flooded (floods were prominent in my dreams around this time). He and I were walking around and he asked me what my exact plan was for the two of us, like if I actually did want to be with him forever... like we had planned). He told me Katy and Adriana were in town and how if they stopped by the house, it would be to try to hook up with him. Once I started up (oh and we were being chased by someone), he told me to actually stop because he didn't really like the idea of sticking to just each other and he didn't want a long commitment (hmm... sounds like the outcome of our relationship). So he decided to not get me a commitment ring and he threw the one I got him into a sewer (another motif in my dreams around that point). He said he didn't love me and never did.